I bow to your lotus feet

My beloved perfect Guru, with body, speech and mind, I bow to your lotus feet.

Wherever you are, out of your compassion for me, please pay heed to your sinful daughter. Wherever you are, please always watch of me and your children, for we are orphans without you. Wherever you are, please have pity on us, and manifest as soon as possible in a noble lineage, where we can once again be in your warm presence, hear your vajra speech.

Wherever you are, please bless me and all those who have gone astray, that we recognise that our lives are but a mere dream of illusion, bless us to recognise every moment, every thought as dharmakaya.

Wherever you are, please bless that we no longer be the slaves of our karma, that we no longer burn our finger in the fire.

Wherever you are, know it is under the red sky of your great love, I am home, it is under the white sky of your wisdom, I see clarity, it is under the blue sky of your clear luminosity, I will be free, it is under your sky, we will never part.

But for now, I long to be under your sky.

With love and devotion, I bow,

Konchok Choedon

LAMA KHEN-NO

Precious Guru I bow at your lotus feet.
I am grateful for every moment you have given me, and I vow to you that your precious teachings I will never forget, I will apply.
Please grant your blessings that I stay in the places which scare me, because it is there I will come face to face with my true nature.
I miss you so, just like I miss my own nature, I make sincere prayer that I can go home soon, home where nothing begins, nor ends, beyond thoughts.... beyond right and wrong and all dualities. Where all is as it is.
Please take me home, I miss home.

I'm turning into a ghost

Written on day 55 of my summer retreat, 2008

Kyema! Kye Ho!

My Lord father guru,

Wherever you are, form or formless,

Please grace your daughter with your winds of love and comfort,

To give me Hope.

Kyema! Kyeho!

My Saviour is gone.

Instead of being strong,

I fall prey to weakness,

I am turning into a ghost!

Kyema! Kyeho!

My Refuge is gone.

Instead of being diligent,

I fall prey to laziness,

I am turning into a ghost!

Kyema! Kyeho!

My Protector is gone.

Instead of being persistent,

I fall prey to quitting,

I am turning into a ghost.

Kyema! Kyeho!

My Guru had dissolved into the sky.

Instead of mingling with his sky-like mind,

I fall prey to confusion & dullness.

I am turning into a ghost.

Kymema! Kyeho!

My only Hope had gone.

Instead of praying with faith,

I fall prey to ego's tricks.

I am turning into a Ghost.

Kyema! Kheho!

The Sun had set on me.

Instead of praticing Dharma,

I'm welcoming the lord of Death.

I am turning into a Ghost.

Oh Lord Father, root Guru of immeasurable compassion,

Please take pity of this hopeless ghost and shine on her!
Melt away her confused delusion,

Warm her cold heart with your soothing Great Love.

Please I beg you to watch over me and those like me,
just like a mother does to her crying infant.

I do not wish to be a ghost!

With longing from Yachenma

要提筆寫呼喚您回來的信

只叫我拿着淚如泉湧的紙

昔日與您共渡的歡笑

是今天記憶中的傷痕

破戒在前方

懶惰伴左右

五毒常在心

愚痴隨着走

是我這些年來的朋友教我

如何有資格迎請您回來

只可哀求您憐憫我,痛惜我

早點回來看看昔日寵壞的我

Thank you for each day you gave us from Yachenma, Norgyunma and me

Rinpochela- We bow to you and through this song we want to say we are so very very very grateful for each day you gave us, we don't know much but we know we are so blessed to be loved by you and to be graced by your precious n rare presence, as rare as stars in the daylight. RINPOCHE BEH KA-DRIN CHEN-PO, SHE-DAK TU CHI CHE. Thank you Rinpohe for great kindess and love for us.

We miss you dearly, deeply, madly. We long for your blessings and love and wisdom mind. Please forsake us not, your servants and children in the blue southern continent. TEN GI DU Rinpochel-la.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bvou2XxB5Cs (choose 'open in new tab' to listen if you don't leave this page)

"For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am Because you loved me
I'm everything I am Because you loved me"

Nothing's gonna stop us now

Rinpoche-la, I bow to you. I was having lunch one day alone in a japanese restaurant, then this song was playing and suddenly, in a brief moment of clarity, I felt your blessings, I know you are telling me you are here with us, whenever we call you to mind, you are here, and even if this world runs of lovers, we still have each other, nothing's gonna stop us....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?hl=en&v=UBoQvhzeeCY&gl=HK
(please click to open in a new tab if you dont want to leave here)

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standing here beside you, want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you
Let 'em say we're crazy, don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look backLet the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do
Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each otherNothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
Ooh, all that I need is you
All that I ever need And all that I want to do Is hold you forever, forever and ever
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us Woh oh oh-oh-oh Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Hey babyAnd we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now

50 years in Exile

Dear Rinpoche-la

Today on planet earth, we are remembering the trials and tribulations of the Tibetan struggle for freedom. 50 years ago today, you too fled from your seat at Nalanda Monastery, central Tibet to Mustang. Its also the last day of Losar today.

No day passes without remembering you and your kindness, no day passes without heart-felt longing for to see your brillaint face, no day passes without prayers for your swift return in the southern blue sky continent, especially in this state of crisis we are facing today.

Honestly, I try my best to practice your teachings. Sometimes I do well,sometimes ok and sometimes not so well. Every moment is a chance to see our essence, every moment It is there, every moment you are there.

Please grace us with light and hope and quickly return in bodily form as per your sacred vow.

Yours truly, deeply and madly

Konchok Choedon.